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Brought to you by Sesame Street....

Target:  The overuse of the words SOFT and SOFTLY as descriptors in fic - SOFT smiles, SOFT eyes, SOFT expressions, SOFT glances, smiling SOFTLY, smirking SOFTLY, speaking SOFTLY, talking SOFTLY, touching SOFTLY,  etc, etc ad infinitum.

Please STOP.........softly.

Kthx.
blairprovence: (Wooster)
I would definitely like to up my fanfiction output - but I'm thinking this idea generator is not the way to go.

Politics

Sep. 7th, 2008 10:17 pm
blairprovence: (Don't Panic)
Wrestled the TV away from my sister who was watching the FOX News special on Sarah Palin.  Wanted to watch the House marathon on USA - despite the fact that I own all the DVDs.  Yeah, I make no sense.

Meanwhile, the only political post I will make this season....

And it's probably not what you think.... )
blairprovence: (Margarita)
 I haven't really done any fic recs on this journal yet, but I found this story on [profile] iron_man_movieand couldn't resist.  It's written in the form of a Vanity Fair article on Tony Stark (the author is Christine Everhart, from the movie, which adds a delicious underlevel to the story), and it's just amazing.  It feels like a real article, and the insights into Tony Stark's psyche are thought-provoking.  If you liked the movie, you'll want to read this story. 


On to the Fiction



 
blairprovence: (Kitty Bubbles)

  Which is an absurd thought, because all the flowers I have ever owned died an ugly death.  That said, I like the name.


blairprovence: (Books)

The Big Read reckons that the average adult has only read 6 of the top 100 books they've printed. Well let's see.

 

Books! Books! Books! )
blairprovence: (Grant & Hepburn - What?)
BlairSis and I went to see the Hulk last night to free the house for a meeting.  We picked it mainly because Mamma Mia wasn't out yet and because Iron Man rocked like a rocking thing, so we were on a Marvel Kick.

Hulk ain't no Iron Man ) 
blairprovence: (Buffy)

Title:  The Futility of Grand Gestures
Author: 
[info]blairprovence
Rating:  PG
Character(s)/Pairing(s):  Buffy, Giles
Warnings:  Season 3, Serious Angst
Disclaimer:  All things Buffy belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, et al.
Summary:   Buffy would do absolutely anything for the people she loves.  That's a good thing, right?
Author Notes:   Completed at long last for my scheduled day on 
[info]summer_of_giles  2008.  Apologies to my flist for the mass posting.  Set after the events of Graduation, Part 1.
  

Part 1
Previous Part

 


 

Part 10 )
blairprovence: (Buffy)

Title:  The Futility of Grand Gestures
Author: 
[info]blairprovence
Rating:  PG
Character(s)/Pairing(s):  Buffy, Giles
Warnings:  Season 3, Serious Angst
Disclaimer:  All things Buffy belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, et al.
Summary:   Buffy would do absolutely anything for the people she loves.  That's a good thing, right?
Author Notes:   Completed at long last for my scheduled day on 
[info]summer_of_giles  2008.  Apologies to my flist for the mass posting.  Set after the events of Graduation, Part 1.
  

Part 1
Previous Part


 Angel! 
 
Buffy took two unconscious steps toward Angel before Ripper whipped the poker back toward the captive vampire. The glowing hot tip of it lit Angel’s face eerily.
 
“Tch, no, Slayer,” Ripper said. “Move away or I torch him.” She froze, her eyes locked with Angel’s. “NOW!” Ripper commanded, and she jumped back reflexively, not tearing her gaze from her ex-boyfriend’s face.
 
Angel’s eyes were wide, dark and urgent. His mouth worked furiously, but he couldn’t seem to make a sound. 
 
Which was weird, really.
 
Buffy glanced at Ripper, who was smiling in satisfaction. “Bit of a spell,” he told her. “Didn’t want threats and whining getting on my nerves.” The smile turned impish. “And he really is much prettier if you don’t have to listen to him talk.”
 
“Always was,” Buffy managed, though her mouth was suddenly dry as dust, her heart pounding with faint, painful hope. 
 
She wasn’t alone anymore. 
 
What can I do? her wide-eyed gaze asked Angel. Help me!
 
He tilted his head, gesturing sharply with one bound shoulder, and clearly mouthed, Get out of hereRun!
 
Which was the one thing she couldn’t do. 
 
No help from that quarter, then. She turned resolutely back to Ripper. “Chains won’t hold him forever, y’know. And rope? Totally amateur.”
 
“The rope is impregnated with Holy Water,” Ripper replied calmly. “Very tricky to apply, that. And the chains are far from ordinary.” He reached out and grasped Angel’s hair, pulling his head back painfully. “Isn’t that right, Angelus? Keeping them as a souvenir of tortures past, were you? I’m sure Rupert Giles would appreciate your maudlin sentiment. If your selfishness hadn’t just led to his demise, I mean.”
 
Angel closed his eyes and tried to turn his head away.
 
Buffy swallowed down sudden nausea and attempted to ignore the implications of Ripper’s statement. “So what’s the deal? You’re into bondage now?”
 
A grin lit Ripper’s ruined face.
 
“Bondage, torture – a little of this, a little of that.” He released Angel’s hair and did a half whirl toward the fireplace, snatching up his sword gracefully. “A bit of blood, a bit of gore.” She had just enough time to bring her sword up to parry his swift attack. “I think I’d like to see what you’re really made of, Slayer.” He grinned wickedly. “From the entrails out.”
 
***
 
“I must say, you’ve surprised me,” Ripper commented fifteen minutes later, dancing nimbly away from an overhand strike, not sounding at all breathless. 
 
Well, he didn’t have breath, did he? Lucky bastard. They’d been fighting without pause, and she could feel her energy beginning to flag. The myriad of small cuts on her arms and legs stung. She knew that he was merely toying with her.
 
“That’s great,” she managed, parrying a thrust. “Glad I could-“ CLANG “-keep you entertained.”
 
“Your reaction to Angel’s imminent demise was so touching,” he pointed out mockingly, blocking her with the fireplace poker. “You rushed right out to commit murder and suicide for him - but the deaths of all of your other loved ones aren’t fazing you at all. I suppose that makes you an exceptionally shallow, faithless bitch. Well done.”

The words shouldn’t have stung – he was a vampire, after all – but hearing herself described that way in Giles’ melodious voice hurt nonetheless. “No, it makes me a Slayer,” she snapped, checking a wild emotional swing in favor a more subtle attack. She was rewarded with a successful slice that bit deeply just below Ripper’s ribs.
 
“Slayers aren’t robots,” he mimicked in a high-pitched tone, wincing and backing away as she pressed her advantage. “Isn’t that what you’ve always said?” He stumbled against the corner of the low table, and she darted forward, desperate to finally end this torture. “I mean, I’ve killed your Watchers, your best friends-“ she readied the killing blow “-your Mother-“
 
She froze. Ripper laughed and eeled away. 
 
“That isn’t true,” she said faintly, sword dormant in her numb hands.
 
“Ah, but it is,” he said. “Ask your boyfriend if you don’t believe me.”
 
She whirled to see Angel looking determinedly anywhere but at her face. “Angel?” He couldn’t meet her eyes, and that was all the answer she required. Her throat closed up. Mom.
 
“She took it well, you’ll be glad to know.”
 
Ripper’s triumphant voice was barely audible over the roaring in Buffy’s ears.
 
“Had a bit of a reunion romp first, just for old times’ sake,” he told her. “Felt a bit inspired by your fuck with-“
 
“NO!” Buffy screamed, flying at him like a virago. He brought his sword up, but she blocked it with her own, sending both of the swords flying. She bodyslammed him into the brick wall and trapped his wrists with her hands. Her panting sobs were audible in the sudden stillness.
 
“There’s my girl,” Ripper crooned, staring into Buffy’s eyes, a half-smile twisting his lips.
 
She had no more tears to cry. She shook her head. “Giles’ girl.”
 
Ripper scissored a leg behind hers and used his superior weight to out-leverage her, reversing their positions to force her back up against the wall, pinning her groin to groin.   His vampire strength squeezed the thin bones of her wrists painfully, but she didn’t make a sound.  
 
“Giles is gone,” he told her, almost kindly.
 
She closed her eyes, falling limp in his arms. “I know.” She didn’t struggle as he leaned forward to nuzzle her neck. A cold tongue licked the sweat from her skin, and she felt the prick of sharp canines against her flesh.
 
Goodbye, Giles.
 
Buffy brought her knee up between Ripper’s legs, using all her Slayer strength. He crumpled to the floor with an “oof” of surprise. She extracted a stake from her waistband and brought it down over his back.
 
The shower of dust covered her shoes. She sank to her knees, reaching for the cracked, useless glasses that had fallen to the floor mid-fight.
 
She was dimly aware that Angel was calling to her, but she couldn’t hear him over the buzzing in her ears.
 
So tell us, Slayer...the death of friends, the death of families...the death of your Watcher...was it worth gaining a few additional days of un-life for your pet demon?
 
She tightened her fingers over the glasses; the broken shards bit into the palm of her hand.
 
No.
 
Swift bootsteps signaled Spike’s arrival.
 
“Well, now, isn’t this a picture? Hello, broody! Thought you were dust.” Angel’s voice rose angrily as a pair of feet in scuffed Doc Martens came to a halt just inside Buffy’s field of vision, toeing the dustpile on the floor. “Somebody’s dust, anyway,” Spike continued, ignoring the other vampire. “Got the Watcher, did you?”
 
Buffy closed her eyes. Only one more thing to do. “My mom…” she said.
 
Spike stilled.
 
“You liked her. She gave you hot chocolate.”
 
No reply.
 
“That was her in the woods, wasn’t it?”
 
“Slayer-“
 
She rose to her feet and met his gaze squarely. “Thank you.”
 
Spike ducked his head, seemingly discomfited. “Wasn’t really Joyce,” he muttered.
 
Buffy held the glasses to her heart. “No, I know.” She steeled herself and turned to face Angel, who was speaking again. He fell silent at the look on her face.
 
“This is my choice,” she told him hollowly. “Better Spike than the Watchers, anyway.” Angel frowned in confusion. 
 
She took a deep breath. “Please stay away from the next Slayer.” 
 
Horrified comprehension dawned across Angel’s face as she turned on her heel and left the room, Spike trailing behind her. Angel’s anxious shouts followed them down the hall.
 
Buffy ended her purposeful march in the stone foyer, still empty but for Oz’s body against the wall. She averted her gaze from the crumpled form to stare at the gibbous moon shining through the window. Her eyes burned. Her fists clenched.
 
“Do it.”
 
There was a silent, breathless moment, and then a whisper of cloth; suddenly the vampire was behind her.
 
“A woman of her word – I like that. But first, do you fancy a bit of-“
 
“Now.”
 
He chose a spot on the opposite side of her neck from Angel’s mark. She would have laughed, but the darkness came too swiftly. 
 
The endless night fell as she set off to find them all.


Epilogue


 

 

 
blairprovence: (Buffy)
Title:  The Futility of Grand Gestures
Author:  [livejournal.com profile] blairprovence
Rating:  PG
Character(s)/Pairing(s):  Buffy, Giles
Warnings:  Season 3, Serious Angst
Disclaimer:  All things Buffy belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, et al.
Summary:   Buffy would do absolutely anything for the people she loves.  That's a good thing, right?
Author Notes:   Completed at long last for my scheduled day on [livejournal.com profile] summer_of_giles  2008.  Apologies to my flist for the mass posting.  Set after the events of Graduation, Part 1.

Part 1
Previous Part

Xander's smile widened evilly, half-morphing into gleaming fangs as he stepped into the foyer. "Hiya, Buff! How ya doin'?"
 
She sagged back against the wall on trembling legs, sliding down the cold stone, her mind dimly recognizing that she was in shock. Seeing Giles as a vampire had been bad - had been horrible, really -and entirely unexpected, but seeing Xander now was almost worse. His had been the one life among her friends she'd hoped to save, the one Scooby Ganger she'd hoped to spare this terrible ordeal.
 
Ripper would have known that, her mind reminded her.  He's psyching you out. But knowing it and dealing with it were two very different things.
 
She scooted nervously sideways across the flagstones as Xander approached, regaining enough presence of mind to latch onto the sword as she eased away from him. Xander knelt down next to Oz's body, the unnerving half-smile still on his face, and reached out to grab the werewolf by the hair. He pulled Oz's head up and let it fall back to the stone floor with a muffled thump. "Werewolf." He sniffed, making a face as he glanced over at Buffy. "The one animal in the world that doesn't taste like chicken." He stood up again and gave the body a desultory kick.
 
Buffy pushed herself up the wall, darting a quick look toward the hallway where she'd left Spike, but there was no sign of the other vampire. Guess I can't count on any help from that quarter, she thought, wondering again why the alliance with Spike had ever seemed like a good idea. Clearly she would have to take care of Xander by herself.
 
Keep him talking, advised a memory of Giles's patient voice from somewhere inside her head. Buy some time to choose your attack carefully. She licked her lips nervously and cast about for something to say. "D-did Ripper do this to you?" she asked shakily, mentally cursing the audible weakness in her tone.
 
Xander crossed his arms over his chest and smirked at her, seeming totally at ease though he was entirely unarmed against her sword and stakes. "Ripper? Hmm...oh, you mean Giles, don't you?"
 
Her jaw clenched. "Yes."
 
He began to pace back and forth in front of her, long loping strides that bespoke a leonine grace. That, more than anything, marked him as different from the human Xander who had been her friend, whose body language had always revealed his crushing lack of self-confidence. Xander had been a strong, clever young man, but his inability to believe in himself had made him clumsy and self-mocking - now, all signs of that handicap had been eradicated. The demon in front of her resembled Ripper far more than its body's former occupant.
 
"Yes," the Xander-who-wasn't-Xander informed her airily. "Giles turned me. He's now my Sire in every way that matters." He pivoted smartly on his heel, pinning her with a narrow gaze.  "He was the only father I ever really had, you know." He smiled slightly at her wince of guilt. "So when he offered me the chance to spend eternity with him, why in the world would I have refused? So I could stay here, in Sunnydale, with everyone else I loved lying dead around me?" He snorted. "Alone except for you, the one who caused it all? Please."
 
"Xand..." she whispered, her eyes bright.
 
He spread his arms wide and executed a courtly bow. "So, how do you like it, Buff? Am I man enough for you now? Let's see..." He pretended to tick off points on his pale fingers.  "Undead? Check. Demon? Check. Leather? Check. Brooding?  Well, I'll work on that." He grinned evilly. "Taunting you over the corpses of your friends? Big check." He stepped forward, stopping close enough to her that she would have felt his cold breath on her neck, had he any breath to offer. "Whaddya say, Buff? Are you in love yet?"
 
She let out a choked cry and brought her sword up, lunging for him. But he was quicker than she'd anticipated, and danced out of reach of her blade, landing near Oz's body to pull a heretofore-unseen sword of his own out from behind it. "Guess not," he laughed, brandishing the blade. "Too bad." He wielded the weapon with surprising skill, and they met in the center of the room, accompanied by the clash of metal-on-metal.
 
Buffy knew without a doubt that she was a better swordsman than the new-Turned vampire, but, unhampered as he was by the guilt and anguish that troubled her, Xander still managed to forestall her attacks with little difficulty.
 
"Angelus must have sucked at the swashbuckling," Xander commented a few minutes later as he ducked under a wild swing, "if you managed to beat him fighting like this. Or maybe you were a little more motivated with him - paying him back for the fuck and run, maybe?"
 
"Shut up!" she hissed, arcing a two-handed blow toward his shoulder.
 
"Truth hurts, doesn't it?" he taunted, dodging with ease.  "Well, deal with it, Buffy. You fucked a demon. You tried to murder Faith. You killed Cordy and Giles. All the badness, it's all 'cause of you, and that's the truth."
 
"You wouldn't know the truth if it bit you in the ass," she retorted, lunging toward him. "The Xander I knew would never choose to be a vampire."
 
"The Xander you knew is dead," he told her flatly, just missing her thigh with a vicious swipe. "He died with Cordy, and Giles, and Willow. He doesn't exist anymore, because" -clang- "of" -clang- "you!"
 
"That Xander would want you dead!" she snapped, slipping under his guard to slice deeply into his left shoulder. She smiled in grim satisfaction, but he shrugged off the injury with apparent ease, the unnerving smile reappearing on his lips.  
 
"He'd never want this," she insisted, circling him. "And Giles would never want it either."
 
Xander dodged behind a wooden table and laughed aloud. "And you care what Giles wants! Since when?" He spun away from her as she yanked the blade away from where her last blow had embedded it in the wood. "You think he wanted to watch you suck face with the demon that killed his girlfriend? Who tortured him for hours right here in this fucking house? You never gave a damn what Giles wanted. You never cared about Giles at all."
 
"That's not true!" Her swings were wilder now as sheer emotion took the place of precision. "I love him!" His return blow forced her off balance and she barely managed to avoid evisceration.
 
He used his leverage to shove her back against the wall next to the hallway's alcove. She glared into his demonic yellow eyes, breathless gasps hitching her chest.
 
"Spare us your love, Buffy," Xander spat, pinning her with their crossed blades. "We're choking on it."
 
He pressed harder, and she could feel the rough stones of the wall digging into her back. For the first time she realized that she might not even get the chance to confront Ripper - Xander had her immobilized, and his vampire strength was a clear match for her Slayermuscle.
 
And then suddenly another sword appeared, the tip gleaming beneath Xander's chin. "That's enough, mate," came Spike's quiet voice as he stepped from the hallway into the room.
 
Xander's sneering attention never left Buffy's face. "Never could fight your own battles, could ya, Buff?"
 
"Back off!" Spike told him when Buffy didn't reply. "Back off now or you're dust, whelp."
 
Abruptly Xander shoved away from her, taking his sword along as he backed across the room. He looked far from defeated, however, and the smirk had returned to his face.
 
"Where were you?" Buffy coughed, rubbing her throat as she slumped against the wall in boneless relief.
 
"Secret weapon's not much of a secret if everyone in the world knows about it, Slayer," Spike replied, shrugging.   "Thought you could 'andle one little demon by yourself. My mistake."
 
Buffy wanted to offer a stinging comeback, but found she had nothing to say in reply. He was right, after all. "The whole house probably knows we're here by now," she muttered instead.
 
"Probably," he said. "I'll take care of junior 'ere. You go on." He gestured with the tip of his sword. "Find your Watcher."
 
She stared at him silently for a moment, before nodding slowly. As she turned toward the entryway she assumed would lead her to Ripper, Xander spoke out one last time. "Be seeing you, Buff!" he called cheerfully.
 
She shivered a little as she left him behind.
 
The hallway between the foyer and the main living space was a short one, and Buffy took a few minutes to lean against the wall to pause and catch her breath. The encounter with Xander had unnerved her badly - as it was presumably supposed to have done. Ripper was proving himself to be a master of psychological warfare - unsurprising, given the vast amounts of brainpower and personal knowledge of Buffy he'd found within himself upon Rising. She knew she couldn't face him until she'd regained some semblance of control, or the fight would be over before it even started.
 
From somewhere behind her she could hear the clash of swords, and in her mind's eye she pictured Spike and Xander battling one another. She hadn't had a chance to quiz Spike about his skills with a blade, but she had to assume he wouldn't have volunteered to take over if he hadn't any confidence in his abilities. At any rate, he was almost certain to make a better show than she had - he definitely labored under none of her emotional handicaps.
 
But while Buffy was willing to let Spike take care of the Xander vampire for her, she would not - could not - allow him to do the same with Ripper.  The demon who'd taken her Watcher's body was her responsibility, and she would allow no one to shoulder the burden but her.
 
Unfortunately, Giles had been a damn sight better with a sword than Xander. And her inability to kill her former friend hadn't done much to bolster her confidence in her own skills. In the past, she hadn't much liked to practice fencing with Giles - aside from the unpleasant associations it held with regard to Angelus's Acathla ritual, it was also something at which she couldn't automatically defeat her Watcher, and her ego was just fragile enough to make that a big un-fun. Whenever he gave her a choice for weapons practice, she'd made a point of choosing something other than swords, something that required stamina and strength more than strategy. Their previous sparring sessions had gifted her with the rather disconcerting knowledge that a human Giles could best her more often than not - and a vampire Giles, with strength and stamina to rival the Slayer's, would be that much more difficult an opponent.
 
And she hadn't even been able to defeat Xander.
 
No! Buffy told her doubting self. You can do this.  You're going to do this for Giles. She took a deep breath and moved forward down the corridor.
 
Buffy paused again when she reached her destination. From the hallway she could not hear any sound coming from the room, but something inside her told her Ripper was there, nonetheless.  He was there, he was waiting....
 
She stepped over the threshold.
 
***
 
He stood across the room in front of the fireplace, his back toward her as he warmed his hands over the open flame. The room was bare and dusty, the only furniture a single low couch, a black silk stand-up privacy screen over in the corner next to the fireplace and a low wooden table and chest resting against the far wall. It was also not a little warm inside, and Buffy found it odd that a vampire would have built such a huge fire - fire being a tremendously effective cause of death for vamps, for one thing. And it wasn't as though he had a body temperature he needed to maintain.
 
She swallowed uneasily as she tried to think of something to say, but he beat her to the punch.
 
"So you've come, then," Ripper said, without bothering to turn around, and Buffy spent a fleeting moment wishing she'd thought to bring her crossbow. It wasn't really an indoor weapon, and tended to be pretty much useless in close quarters fighting, but right at that moment one would have been a godsend.
 
He knew you wouldn't bring it along, the doubting part of her taunted mentally. He knows you that well, and you are so dead.
 
"Shut up," she hissed fiercely under her breath, and Ripper turned to face her, raising an enquiring brow as a small smile graced his lips. The flames danced in the cracked lenses of his glasses. The scarring that marred his body was even more hideous in the full light of the fire than it had been in the dim shadows of her hospital room, and Buffy felt her heart wrench as she was forced once again to face the pain Giles must have felt as he lay dying.
 
"Pardon?" Ripper murmured, clearly enjoying her discomposure.
 
"I wasn't talking to you," she told him, flushing slightly in embarrassment.
 
"Talking to oneself can be considered a sign of incipient madness," he returned mildly. "Of course, then, sometimes it's the only way to have a decent conversation when surrounded by drones and idiots."
 
"Minions not living up to your demon hype?"
 
"I was thinking of faculty meetings, actually," he replied.  "Though it would seem you managed to deal with my minions after all. Not that I assumed Wesley, at least, would give you much trouble-"
 
"None at all," Buffy interrupted, ignoring the fact that if it weren't for Spike she would have died at Wesley's hands without, quite literally, knowing what had hit her. "Wes, Larry, Xander...pieces of cake." His gaze narrowed briefly as she concluded her list, but he didn't reply, so she continued to goad him. "Can't say I think much of your taste in stormtroopers, Darth. I mean, c'mon, Wesley?"
 
Giles shrugged. "It was a matter of chance, really - I happened across him and found him annoying...though, to be honest, he didn't really improve post-draining." He turned his back on her and reached for the poker to stir the fire.
 
Buffy swallowed nervously, but managed to stay the impulse to fly at him. His undefended back was a tempting target, to be sure, but logically she knew he could snatch up the sword canted against the fireplace and turn around in plenty of time to defend himself if she were to attack him. No, she had to be smart about this.  She had to be smart, or she'd be dead and he'd be free to continue his reign of terror. "And Larry?" she asked him, just for something to say.
 
"Ah, well, now - Larry wasn't mine, you see. It seems he was injured during the battle with the Mayor, much as I was, and turned at about the same time. However, his Sire apparently died in the melee. I found him afterward, feeling quite at loose ends, and offered him a place at my side. A charming boy, really, if a bit simple." Ripper turned again to look at her, the same small, smug smile gracing his lips. "Much like Xander."
 
Buffy felt herself stiffen. "I know why you killed Xander," she informed him in arctic tones.
 
His smile widened. "Ah, yes - you think it's all about you, do you? What would you say if I told you I hadn't planned to do anything at all to young Mister Harris?"
 
"I'd say you were a liar."
 
"Well, of course I'm a liar," he replied matter-of-factly.  "I am a demon, after all. But why should I have sought out that boy? He'd have done quite enough damage to you on his own, I should imagine - the one person amongst your little cadre who had the stones to hold you responsible for the havoc you wreak."
 
She recalled the furious expression on Xander's face when she'd awakened in her hospital room the previous afternoon. "He hated me," she breathed, finally taking Ripper's meaning. "He wanted me to pay."
 
Ripper grinned. "Exactly. There was always anger in that boy to rival a demon's, courtesy of a home life you never cared enough to investigate. I was quite looking forward to seeing what he would do to you, actually. But, alas, he came to me here instead, and I felt obliged to help him."
 
"Help?" she scoffed, her fingers curling about the sword hilt. "You call that help?"
 
Ripper arched his un-singed eyebrow. "Why, yes, actually. Helping him to channel his rage into something more...productive, I suppose you could say. He made quite a demon. It's a pity you destroyed him."
 
"The Xander I knew would have wanted it that way."
 
"The Xander you knew disappeared long before I killed him.  About the time the lovely Miss Chase drew her last breath, I'd say." He smiled as she winced. "Come now, Buffy. As much as you'd like to blame me for the terrible ends your friends have met, we both know I'm not the one at fault here."
 
"I know my responsibility," she told him steadily.
 
He considered her silently for a moment. "I see - my apologies," he finally replied. "Though you have to admit it wasn't an unreasonable assumption on my part. To accept your role in creating all of this...is a somewhat unprecedented action on your part, isn't it?"
 
She felt her cheeks redden but kept her gaze resolutely on his. "It doesn't matter anymore. Nothing does. Nothing except the promise I made to Giles." She raised the sword. "The promise that I'd kill you."
 
The disquieting smile returned to his lips. "Ah, yes. Your promise." He absently stirred the fire with the poker. "Hearing you give your word relieved him to no end, you'll be glad to know. Well, that, along with other things." The smile dissolved into a smirk.
 
"Wh-what?"
 
"Did you think I wouldn't know? I told you that your Rupert and I were sharing this body. When he's here, naturally I feel his presence, and when he's not...."
 
Another 'what?' stuck in Buffy's throat as she considered the implications of his words. She wanted to ask him what he knew about her afternoon - wanted him to confirm her belief that Giles, her Giles, had been there with her in that bedroom. But somehow she knew hearing the words pass his lips would cheapen what had happened. Ripper would make what had evolved between them seem sordid and desperate instead of right and beautiful.
 
And the fact that he seemed to know about it proved enough, didn't it?
 
"I don't want to talk about that."
 
The smirk widened. "Of course. My apologies, once again."
 
"Stop it," she snapped. "Stop apologizing. You're not sorry. You're not sorry about any of it, so stop pretending you are."
 
"As you wish." He turned back to the fire.
 
Her body was almost humming with repressed rage and frustration. She'd had enough of his waiting game. "What do you want?" she bit out, rocking forward on her toes. "For God's sake, let's just finish this!"
 
He chuckled. "High Noon in the drawing room? No, no, my dear, it's not quite that simple. You see, I'm not entirely sure you've learned your lesson yet."
 
"Well, then, why don't you just spill it, Teach, or I'll be taking you down at recess. I'm running out of patience."
 
He turned to face her, the poker still in hand. "A quality you never possessed in abundance, true. Oh, very well." He whipped the poker out to the side, and she flinched back reflexively, though he was too far away from her for it to do any damage.
 
"What-" she replied, as the glowing hot tip of the poker came in contact with the silk privacy screen. The smooth material immediately ignited, the flames billowing upward in an impressive pyrotechnic display. The gritty ash floated down to settle on the stone floor, and as the smoke from the brief fire cleared, she could make out the outline of a figure seated in a chair behind it.
 
Or not just seated, rather, but restrained by and straining against several lengths of metal chain and rope wrapped securely around arms, legs and torso.
 
His face wasn't really visible, a one-quarter profile turned toward Ripper, with his dark hair obscuring his features, but she'd spent over two years of her life studying that form, and she knew his body as well as her own.
 
Her heart stopped, and his name was barely a whisper on her lips.
 
"Angel?"
 
Ripper grinned, brandishing the poker like a magic wand.  "Surprise!"
 
Part 9

 
blairprovence: (Buffy)
Title:  The Futility of Grand Gestures
Author:  [livejournal.com profile] blairprovence
Rating:  PG
Character(s)/Pairing(s):  Buffy, Giles
Warnings:  Season 3, Serious Angst
Disclaimer:  All things Buffy belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, et al.
Summary:   Buffy would do absolutely anything for the people she loves.  That's a good thing, right?
Author Notes:   Completed at long last for my scheduled day on [livejournal.com profile] summer_of_giles  2008.  Apologies to my flist for the mass posting.  Set after the events of Graduation, Part 1.

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A moment later she was fully awake, and remembered that she'd never have a chance to tease Giles about anything ever again.
 
Groaning, she braced her hand against the floor and levered herself up to a sitting position, falling back against Giles's couch as another wave of pain swam through her head. "What hit me?" she muttered.
 
"Some RP ponce," came Spike's cutting tones. "How you managed to last three bloody years as the Slayer is beyond me, pet.  Inviting me in was one thing, but-"
 
Buffy glanced around the room and discovered a duster-clad Spike lounging against the fireplace mantle, gun still firmly in hand. "Where is he?" she demanded. "If you've hurt him--"
 
"If I've hurt him!" Spike retorted, snorting with laughter. "Damn straight I bloody hurt him. I killed 'im but good!"
 
"You-" Buffy growled, stumbling to her feet, but then his words penetrated her fogged mind, "...killed him?" She fell back onto the cushions with a thump. Oh God...my fault, my fault myfault myfaultmyfault... Another death to lay at her feet. If she hadn't brought Spike back to Sunnydale, hadn't invited him into Giles's home, then Wesley would still be...  Oh, God.  
 
"You shouldn't have..." she told him numbly.  "He was only trying to do his duty..."
 
Spike snorted again. "Clapping you over the head with a crutch?"
 
She looked away from Spike, considering the evident reality of what Wesley had done to her. She had believed he was trying to protect her.... No, he had tried, she truly did believe that - but she hadn't left town like he had wanted. Could she blame him for coming for her now, knowing how ruthless the Council could be to those they considered traitors? No, Wesley was not at fault.  "The Council," she whispered, closing her eyes. Damn them, anyway. "He was supposed to bring me before the Council."
 
"Council's working with vampires now, is it?" Spike retorted derisively. "And they claim to be the bleedin' White Hats. Bollocks!"
 
It took a moment for the implication of his words to penetrate her fogged brain. She blinked up at Spike. "He was a vampire?"
 
"D'you see a corpse layin' around, Slayer?" he sneered, waving the gun to encompass the room. "Guess your Watcher really was the brains of the outfit."
 
Buffy winced as she fingered the knot on the back of her head, her gaze riveted on what she could now see was a pile of dust on the patterned rug. The end of one crutch peeked out from under the back of the couch. "You saved my life," she whispered - and then the incongruity of her own words became clear.  She looked up at Spike skeptically. "And didn't drain me while I was unconscious? You saved me?"
 
He scowled at her. "Not on purpose, ducks. But I want t'know what the bloody 'ell is going on around here, and I didn't have time to hang about for your Rising. Not to mention that you'd probably be a raving looney as a vampire, too - most Slayers are, y'know."
 
"No, I didn't know," she replied absently as her gaze returned to the dust pile, the remains of her wanna-be Watcher.  She had found him irritating, true, and resented his presence mightily. And she didn't think she should have had to apologize for that, either - the Council had fired Giles for 'caring too much', which had meant, in a de facto sort of way, that his replacement wouldn't care at all. And the Council had expected her to trust him?  But Wesley hadn't been that bad - had, in fact, clearly done his best, though his best hadn't been anything to write home about, really. Still, he'd deserved a better end than dying at fangpoint.
 
At Giles's fangpoint.
 
Buffy pressed her index finger into the pile of dust. "I can't believe Wesley was a vampire," she murmured.
 
"Wesley? That 'is name?"
 
"Yeah." She sighed. "He was a Watcher - the replacement one they sent after they fired Giles. I didn't like him, thought he was a major jerk, in fact...but he tried to warn me yesterday about what the Council was gonna do to me." And that hadn't been all he had tried to do, even though she had never failed to ignore him. She swallowed guiltily. "And he told me to concentrate on the Ascension instead of Angel when Angel was sick."
 
"Like talking to a bloody wall, that," Spike observed, then paused. "You talked to him yesterday? Pre-fangs?"
 
She nodded.
 
"Bloody 'ell."
 
She blinked at him. "What?"
 
Spike pointed the gun toward the dustpile. "'He rose in less than a day, and came up in fighting form. Your Watcher Turned 'im fast - too damn fast - faster than any three-day-old vampire's s'posed to be able to."
 
Buffy swallowed. "You mean...”
 
"I mean your bloody Watcher's a damned unnatural vampire, Slayer. Fledglings are s'posed to obey their sires without question and spend at least the first six months of their lives just feeding like wild animals. Turning other vampires comes much later, and even then it should take the new ones days to Rise. Turning someone so they Rise within hours takes discipline - can't drink more'n just enough, then feed 'em just the right amount of your own. It's rough going even for a Master. And your Ripper sired this one and made 'im functional in less than twenty-four hours."
 
"Damn," Buffy breathed, and Spike nodded his agreement as he straightened up and headed for the door.
 
"You're on your own, Slayer," he threw over his shoulder.  "I'll get Dru back in my own sweet time."
 
"Wait," she burst out, jumping up from the couch. He turned to regard her impatiently. "Aren't you worried?" she asked, slightly panicked. Spike wasn't much of an ally, true, but having him at her side was a vast improvement over having no one at all, and she felt more than a little desperate to keep him from leaving. "He's gotten just about everyone here already - he's gonna be branching out soon if he's not stopped.  Don't you think you're gonna be right at the top of his hit list?"
 
Spike rolled his eyes. "I don't think he's done with you by a long shot, Slayer. Unless I miss my guess, you've got months of torture to look forward to and I'll be long gone by the time he's done. There's nothing you've offered me worth me risking my hide trying to fight that."
 
She swallowed, slowly straightening to her full height and squaring her shoulders. "Maybe not," she replied in a strong, clear voice. "But I'm not done offering yet."
 
***
 
Buffy had never before considered what the interior of Spike's beat-up classic car would look like, though she had once commented that from the outside the vehicle seemed to suit Spike's personality perfectly. She found, to her surprise, that the inside resembled Xander's Uncle Rory's car more than anything else--with old-fashioned chrome knobs and levers, leather seats, and loose Twinkie wrappers and empty liquor bottles on the floorboards. Spike had set the radio station to some god-awful heavy metal station and was singing along to the music, paying very little attention to tune. They hadn't spoken since they'd loaded the car with weapons and gotten underway.
 
Sighing, she turned her head toward the window and attempted to peer out through the smeary black shoe polish that presumably blocked the sun's rays - but it was dark, and she couldn't tell the polish from the inky sky. There was really nothing to see, anyway, but she knew all too well what - who - was out there, and that knowledge threatened a return of the chill that had enveloped her since her hospital awakening. She squeezed her eyes shut and cast her mind back to Giles's bedroom, clutching the warmth of those memories to her to ward off the cold. Her fingers crept up to the front pocket of Giles's shirt, which she wore over her sweats and t-shirt. The pocket still held the two pictures of her friends, to which she had added Willow's Pez dispenser and Angel's Claddagh ring. 
 
She had left behind, on Giles’s kitchen table, two hastily scribbled notes to Xander and her mother.
 
"I still don't see how you can know this is where he'll be, Slayer," Spike muttered querulously after his last solo had mercifully ended.
 
Glad for the excuse to do so, she reached forward and switched off the radio. "I just know," she said, though she herself wasn't sure how she did.   "Just trust me."
 
"Oh, right," Spike snorted. "I'll get right on that. It makes no sense, Slayer. Why would he want to go back there, even as a demon?  I'd think it would be the last place he'd want to be."
 
Buffy turned to look at him. "Huh? Why?"
 
Spike rolled his eyes as he turned the steering wheel.  "Does the word 'torture' ring a bell, pet? You're a thick one, aren't you?"
 
Buffy blinked, stunned by his words - and by the fact that his conclusion was both completely obvious, and something she'd never before considered. That Angel's home was the site of Giles's greatest pain and suffering, the torture chamber in which he'd endured hour upon hour of sheerest hell. "He's...been back there already," she told Spike unsteadily as her mind replayed the memories in her head. The mansion had, in fact, been the last place she'd ever seen Giles alive just over four days ago.  
 
She'd been frantic over Angel, incensed at the Watchers Council's refusal to help him, and desperate to find something, anything, to do. She'd felt as though remaining cooped up in that mansion was going to drive her mad, and so she'd left Angel in Giles's custody - left Giles to care for his torturer in his torture chamber, and she'd never even given it a thought.
 
Drive me mad? And I never considered how it must have been for him... She could remember their conversation so clearly. She had dismissed Wesley, his concerns, and his Council, and then turned to Giles, confident, as always, of his support.
 
"Giles, I can't stay here any longer. I'm gonna see if I can help the others."
 
I can't stay, an angry voice in her mind repeated derisively. But, sure, let Giles do it, 'cause I bet it was just a great big barrel of laughs for him...
 
But all he'd said was, "Of course," in that kind Giles-way of his, without a hint of condemnation in his tone or in his look. Because that was Giles.
 
Why didn't I see?
 
She felt fresh tears spill over and roll down her cheeks.
 
Why didn't I ever see?
 
She hadn't. All she had said in return was, "You'll watch him?" It hadn't really even been a question, or an entreaty - but an assumption.
 
A terrible, selfish assumption that Giles had allowed her to make without demur - he'd simply promised to call her if there was any change in the vampire's condition. She had left Giles there, without even a goodbye, and run off to commit murder to save her Angel.
 
She hadn't even said goodbye.
 
Buffy choked back a sob and turned her face toward the window, so Spike wouldn't see her tears.
 
But she hadn't taken into account vampire hearing.
 
"If you're going to dissolve into a blob of sniveling human, this is never going t'work, Slayer." Spike's hands gripped the steering wheel tightly. "It took you months to find the stones to kill Angelus - if you're not up for this, tell me now. I don't want to die because you've stopped mid-fight to brood a bit."
 
"I can do it," Buffy told him in a hollow tone. "I'm going to do it. I promised him I would. It won't be like before." She closed her eyes and swallowed. "I'm going to do it."
 
Spike didn't reply as he steered the car off of the road into a vacant lot located two streets north of the mansion.  They'd agreed that stealth was of paramount importance, as they had no idea how many other unlucky people Ripper had managed to Turn in his four days of un-life. Spike had posited it was unlikely there would be more than two or three, though he was unwilling to wager on it - clearly, he didn't put much past the capabilities of VampireGiles. Buffy was forced to agree with him, so they had decided to proceed under the expectation that there would be a number of guards surrounding the mansion.
 
Armed with stakes and swords, the two of them set out through the woods to approach the mansion from behind. Their progress was stealthy, but slow, and though Buffy kept every one of her senses on high alert, the silence between them allowed far too much time for her own thoughts to torment her.
 
They were going to Angel's house - and whatever that place had meant to Giles, whatever it meant to Spike (and she was certain his memories weren't good ones, judging by the look in his eyes) - to her, it had been a refuge. Odd, that, given that she'd been forced to send Angel to hell from there, but it had been their place, where she and her soulful vampire had gone to be alone, where - since Angel's return - they'd passed the majority of their hours together.
 
And now Angel was dead.
 
Really dead this time. She'd believed it utterly from the moment Ripper had produced the Claddagh ring. But in the time since then, she hadn't had a moment to really process the information. The loss of Giles had been too immediate, too painful, and with the presence of his vampiric doppelganger, all too scarily real. His loss had filled her whole heart, and thoughts of him had filled her whole mind. She hadn't had a chance to mourn Angel, or Cordy, or Oz, or Wes...or Willow, who'd been her very best friend almost since the first moment they'd met. Willow, with her quirky, endearing grin, her innocent bravado, her heart as big as Texas - she deserved better than to be an afterthought, simply a dull, aching grief underneath more pressing concerns. She deserved so much better. They all did.
 
But Buffy didn't have time. And though she knew that they, of all people, would have understood that, she still felt guilty about it.
 
The attack came from her left, and she was surprised near to disaster by the swift competence of it, heralded as it was only by the merest whisper of leaves. Her vampire foe managed to knock her into a large tree almost immediately, and she rapped her head sharply against the bark, losing her sword in the process. He was big, but awkward, and fought with rather more brute power than style or grace. It took her a few moments to identify him as Xander's sometime-friend Larry, the misogynist jock turned preppy gay crusader. He growled at her, his eyes glowing ferally, and she wondered if he recognized her.
 
As she clocked him across the face she wondered further if Ripper had even sired him - how many of her fellow students had been Turned by the Mayor's vampire mob after she'd deserted them on Graduation Day?
 
And where the hell was Spike? He'd disappeared off to her right just as Larry had attacked her, and as she grimly fought off her former classmate, she was forced to face the fact that her new ally might be even less reliable than she'd assumed.  Though it was possible he was engaged in his own battle - she heard a muffled shout and caught a flash of blonde between the trees that was too curly and not quite peroxide-y enough to be his.
 
She finally managed to push Larry far enough away to extract a stake from her waistband. "Sorry, Larry," she muttered as she forced it home, and her former not-friend dissolved into a shower of dust. But she didn't actually feel regretful, to her surprise, nor sad or guilty.
 
Guess my emotion-circuits have finally hit overload, she thought. The sheer enormity of the deaths of most everyone she held dear in the world left little room to mourn much else.
 
Spike emerged from the foliage, dusting off his hands. "Got 'im, did you?" he inquired, as if asking about the weather.
 
"Yup," she replied, raising an eyebrow, "And where the hell were you?"
 
He rolled his eyes, averting his gaze to scan the forest around them. "Answering the call of nature, pet," he drawled.  "What do you think?"
 
"Anyone I knew?" she asked as she bent to gather her weapons. Something about his manner struck her as odd, but she couldn't quite put her finger on what it was.
 
"Trust me, Slayer, you don’t want t’know," Spike muttered as he set out through the trees again, sword at the ready.
 
She considered his words for a moment, then sighed and decided not to press him. Perhaps she was better off not knowing.
 
They met up with no one else on their approach to the mansion, and found themselves outside the side entrance in short order. Spike appeared, if it were possible, even tenser than he had been in the car, and she could see that whatever memories were haunting him, they were almost enough to make him leave without venturing inside. "How many more, do you think?" she asked by way of distraction, though it was a pointless question, really. He wouldn't have any better of an idea than she did.
 
"Too bloody many," he snapped. "Are you coming or not?"
 
She gestured toward the door with her sword, and he reached for the ornate brass knob and turned it. Somewhat to her surprise, it opened easily, and they exchanged a confused glance. Come in to my parlor, said the spider to the fly...  Buffy thought automatically. But even if it was a trap, she had no choice but to go forward.
 
She preceded Spike into the dimly lit corridor, every sense on alert, but the dark hallway was empty. They crept along the passage silently, making their way toward the front of the mansion and the usable rooms. She stayed just far enough in front of the vampire to keep his presence a secret, should anyone catch sight of her, but they encountered no one - no one at all.
 
It made her extremely nervous, which she suspected was the point. Ripper knew her too well, knew that she'd rather fight and get it over with than endure a nerve-wracking wait. She forced herself to calm down.
 
A few long, tense minutes later she emerged into the stone foyer, blinking rapidly in the far brighter lighting of the room. It, too, was deserted - empty at least of living beings, though a small, crumpled form lay sprawled carelessly against the far wall. Buffy waved Spike back into the hallway and swallowed nervously as she made her way toward the body. With trembling fingers, she reached out to turn it over.
 
It was Oz.
 
She drew in a sharp, pained breath. It was Oz, and he was, without a doubt, unquestionably, irrevocably dead. No fang marks marred his still features, and his lips and fingers were pasty blue, his eyes wide, blank and unseeing. Buffy blinked back tears and futilely attempted to close his eyelids, murmuring a silent prayer for the gentle soul of the werewolf who had been her friend.
 
"Oh, damn," she breathed, her voice hitching. "Oh, damn it, Oz, I'm sorry."
 
"Well, that just makes it all better, doesn't it?" drawled a sarcastic voice from the entryway to the living room, and Buffy jumped and whirled about to face its owner, her mouth dropping open in shock.
 
Xander stood in front of her, dressed in what her sharp eye recognized as Angel's leather pants, white shirt and jacket, a bitter sneer marring his overly pale face. He lounged against the stone doorjamb indolently, predatory grace screaming from every line of his body, and she felt her spidey-sense go crazy.
 
Vampire! Vampire!
 
The sword fell from her numb fingers to clatter to the floor. "Xand?" she whispered fearfully. "Oh, no, Xander.  No..."
blairprovence: (Buffy)
Title:  The Futility of Grand Gestures
Author:  [livejournal.com profile] blairprovence
Rating:  PG
Character(s)/Pairing(s):  Buffy, Giles
Warnings:  Season 3, Serious Angst
Disclaimer:  All things Buffy belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, et al.
Summary:   Buffy would do absolutely anything for the people she loves.  That's a good thing, right?
Author Notes:   Completed at long last for my scheduled day on [livejournal.com profile] summer_of_giles  2008.  Apologies to my flist for the mass posting.  Set after the events of Graduation, Part 1.

Part 1
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Part 6 )
blairprovence: (Buffy)
Title:  The Futility of Grand Gestures
Author:  [personal profile] blairprovence
Rating:  PG
Character(s)/Pairing(s):  Buffy, Giles
Warnings:  Season 3, Serious Angst
Disclaimer:  All things Buffy belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, et al.
Summary:   Buffy would do absolutely anything for the people she loves.  That's a good thing, right?
Author Notes:   Completed at long last for my scheduled day on  [community profile] summer_of_giles  2008.  Apologies to my flist for the mass posting.  Set after the events of Graduation, Part 1.

Part 1
Previous Part

Part 5 )

 
blairprovence: (Buffy)

Title:  The Futility of Grand Gestures
Author:  
[info]blairprovence
Rating:  PG
Character(s)/Pairing(s):  Buffy, Giles
Warnings:  Season 3, Serious Angst
Disclaimer:  All things Buffy belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, et al.
Summary:   Buffy would do absolutely anything for the people she loves.  That's a good thing, right?
Author Notes:   Completed at long last for my scheduled day on 
[info]summer_of_giles  2008.  Apologies to my flist for the mass posting.  Set after the events of Graduation, Part 1.
 

Part 1
Previous Part

Part 4 )
blairprovence: (Buffy)
Title:  The Futility of Grand Gestures
Author:  [personal profile] blairprovence
Rating:  PG
Character(s)/Pairing(s):  Buffy, Giles
Warnings:  Season 3, Serious Angst
Disclaimer:  All things Buffy belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, et al.
Summary:   Buffy would do absolutely anything for the people she loves.  That's a good thing, right?
Author Notes:   Completed at long last for my scheduled day on [community profile] summer_of_giles  2008.  Apologies to my flist for the mass posting.  Set after the events of Graduation, Part 1.

Part 1
Previous Part

Part 3 )

 
blairprovence: (Buffy)
Title:  The Futility of Grand Gestures
Author:  [personal profile] blairprovence
Rating:  PG
Character(s)/Pairing(s):  Buffy, Giles
Warnings:  Season 3, Serious Angst
Disclaimer:  All things Buffy belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, et al.
Summary:   Buffy would do absolutely anything for the people she loves.  That's a good thing, right?
Author Notes:   Completed at long last for my scheduled day on [community profile] summer_of_giles  2008.  Apologies to my flist for the mass posting.  Set after the events of Graduation, Part 1.


Part 1

Part 2 )
blairprovence: (Buffy)
Title:  The Futility of Grand Gestures
Author:  [personal profile] blairprovence
Rating:  PG
Character(s)/Pairing(s):  Buffy, Giles
Warnings:  Season 3, Serious Angst
Disclaimer:  All things Buffy belong to Joss Whedon, Mutant Enemy, et al.
Summary:   Buffy would do absolutely anything for the people she loves.  That's a good thing, right?
Author Notes:   Completed at long last for my scheduled day on [community profile] summer_of_giles  2008.  Apologies to my flist for the mass posting.  Set after the events of Graduation, Part 1.


Part 1 )

 
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